lacking of brain cells

I swear my brain cells are malfunctioning nowadays. They are not as efficient as they used to be. Everyday wake up when the clock strikes 7 in the morning, and having to sleep only after 12-1am or beyond, how to have sufficient rest?

Sometimes I am quite amazed by how human bodies work. Maybe Im not a science person so the mechanisms and the functions of a human body seems alien to me. I mean to knowing why this and that would happen to different gender. Like the very basic, why woman has to have periods and why do men have to have wet dreams and why blood types play an important part in designing an effective dieting plan etc. The whole list goes on and on and on. After exams, I'm going to do some research on all these online when I have the time.

Someone popped this question to me few days ago. 'is it possible for a girl and a guy be really close friends in long terms?' Those really close friends to share joys and woe with, and with no sexual thoughts at all. I think about it for a long time cause I realised I used to have 2 of such friends but end up, one became someone I fall for unknowingly and another one is my boyfriend, Bing. Some of whom I have asked for opinions agreed that it's possible to do so. This kind of friendship is hard to come by and I hope I have one of such too =/ Haha, well very much it depends on how the other party treats you as or look upon to you as. 'A-sexual'. I got a strong feeling that this is the wrong spelling =X Termed by selene and this is what I learnt and hopefully I said it correctly, that they might not look upon you as the opposite sex but on a neutral ground where they see you as a 'gender-less friend'. Like those buddy-buddy kind of friends counted? Having to fall for Bing is also unknowingly, my heart just tells me to go for it and yes I did. Come to think of it now, the thought of being together with him has never crossed my mind when we were in Secondary school. Maybe it happened when I was at my lowest during and after the O's and only Selene and Bing see me through those times.

How important is money to you? Yes, money is the root of all evils yet we need IT badly to survive. We make financial plans for the futures but how often do these plans work? Before a marriage, every couple will try to have a financial plan for their future but how often does it work especially the economics now is crazily changing. And also how many more young couples are there to support themselves without having to depend on parents? How many more families I have see to have splitted due to financial problems? That's why careers mean so important to me. A stable career with a stable income is so important. Of cause that have to be a long term. Yet now we don't even know whether we can secure any job given the current situation.

Perhaps I need to consider the current situation and stop being stubborn thinking that what will become of our lives by the age of 45. Given that economic is not doing well and it's still too early to say and that he does has a stable income now, have already promised a relatively good future. We are all humans and sometimes we could be blinded by love or money. I don't deny money is the main factor. However I did thought of what if somewhere during the process something bad happened(CHOY!), I will still hold onto whatever I have and make the best out of it. At least, that's the only thing I can do right.


We live only once; so try to make the best out of it. It's hard to be an angel and devil at the same time. It's hard to weigh the pros and cons equally on the scale. Cause ultimately one side of the scale will indicates that it is heavier. YET, sometimes being a neutral party will shows the ugly side of you, especially if failed to handle the situation well and people will mistaken as two-faced. Sigh, humans are troublesome. Yea I am troublesome too. Maybe some of the white hairs on Bing's head is because of a troublesome gf( I bet he agrees to this too! )

'Smile all problems away', that's what I used to do when I feel sad. Faking a smile does help in lifting up your mood by a little. Rather than frowning and create more wrinkles for your face, why not smile and tell yourself that you live for yourself, and other more people who love and care for you. There might have one thing to end your sad/groomy/grumpy day, is to think of the one happy thing that happened on that particular day. Laugh about it before you went to sleep. At least this will end your day happily. Don't tell me there's not even one happy thing happen on that day. If really so, then I've nothing much to say.

Laughing is contagious and smiles make one's day happier.

Cause my mum just told me that many people will die in the year 2012 because of the ozone layer issue, which she didn't specified. So if you think that you are going to die early, please do something productive to the world now. Because I do believe KARMA STRIKES!

Aims for this coming year:
- to be able to go JB for speeding
- to have a mini getaway with Selene (:
- to have another getaway with Monsters
- to save to this $XX amt by sept
- to be able to learn driving by then (time and $$$ constraint, sigh)
- hong kong possible?
- to strike a 4D! HAHA
- to watch a R21 show. HAHA doesnt need to be those nudity. but seems like most of them are, not like I watched R21 HORROR movies. =X
- to go into a casino with the legal age of 21!
- to have sufficient money to go for luxury SPA!
- to be able to reach my ideal weight!!!
- lastly, to pass my upcoming exams! *I pray I hope I wish*

Aim for the rest of my life:
- TO GO EGYPT AND SEE THE 3 DAMN PYRAMIDS.