when hopes are dashed,
I hold on to the hope that still exist around me.

I cant help but think...

I cant help but think of the worstcasescenario.
I cant help but think of the ugly side of you.
I cant help but think of what's going to happen in 2 more days time.
I cant help but think of what will I become of in 3 weeks time.
I cant help but think of how will I do for exams that coming in 1 month time.
I cant help but think of what will become of us in the future.
I cant help but think of who we are when we were that young.
I cant help but think of the happy moments we used to have, like nobody business.
I cant help but think of that expression on each of our faces when that goal was scored.
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I cant help but think of you every night before I sleep.
I cant help but think of simple love as it comforts my heart before I sleep.
I cant help but think of the life we MIGHT be leading in the near future.
I cant help but think of the bad side of life.
I cant help but think of you, hoping that you are right here with me now.
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I cant help but think, oh no this is how badly I need you right now......

(((((((:

I realised, even for the figuring, I HAVE TO LOOK SO ROUND! TSKKKK

dance till you drop

20 mar 09 - First time we went to club tog, Selene Jy Bing Me! As this group of friends I swear we will stay till forever(: Phuture is the last place that Selene wanna go, but because majority said to go there and there we were on the 20th and dancing our asses off!!!!!!! Haven't had such fun with absolutely nothing to worry about, not to say time is passsing way TOOO FAST. But I would say, this much of fun is enough, cause my body can't take it.

Dinner at some bat ku teh near Double O, cause we are supposed to go drinking at O bar! But we past the happpy hour, so no more cheap drinks ):
Drinking at wine bar, and eating as much tibits as we could and crapping and drinking weird tasting alcohols. Companies, especially with jy ard, will never be boring cause he is definitely full of craps.

Oh oh, 20th is a nice day! Cause it's a small world for everyone! During dinner, we saw this secondary sch friend who is also friend of Selene's colleagues. Then then, when we went to Phuture, selene met up with her 3 friends whom then I realised Nicholas( the ex canoiest) is also one of her friends. Then we also saw another secondary sch friends whom my friend's friend was holding his bday party at. This is not all, one of them turns out to be Bing's friend too!! Hmm, I would say, THE WHOLE WORLD GOES TO PHUTURE! Yeah, and so we all danced together! ((:

Ohoh oh, there's quite a handful of not bad looking people for that night =XX HAHA. and watching people puking ALL over, and point point at people on their dressings and admiring how some pros danced! And jy TRIED to show some of his talents off! hahaha, quite a funny scene.

All I know is my tighs hurt terribly after the whole night, and I kept leaning everywhere. I thought I could eat a horse after club. Was so damn hungry, ended up ate maggie and chips! There goes all my 'shakings' at the club! when the music played we dance, and so i hope the music don't stop, ever.
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i tried to stop those ____,
but it's hard.
for you, i will try even harder.

the world can be so amazing
that there can be so many thousands millions trillions zillions of people yet none of them look the same as you.
Well, there can be common faces but how often can that get?

I was having my routine runs when I happened to notice everybody who is running pass me. I cant help but wonder why we cant look all the same. And so, maybe when troubles occur, we have 'our clones' to help us solve the problem.

studying hasn't been much fruitful, opposite of what I expected it to be. Since mummy not at home for one week, but she's back tonight =( There goes my studying at home with no money spend! Perhaps I should shut down and spoil my laptop soon, so I wont be online shopping and looking for unattainable dresses. SIGH

I walked passed blocks after blocks, silence of the night creeping up on me. Fear of darkness has always been my weaker link, yet I found no hand to hold on to.

reason i cant accept

having a terrible headache after all the studying.
and so i thought of sth disturbing, though it has been quite some time.

So disturbing that I cant help, but I do need a let out.

SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH
SELFISH

U are one selfish ass! Tmd, never did I expect YOU to be like that. Life sucks and I swallowed it.
But this is something I can never swallow. Imagine this were to be happening to you, bet u will feel as equally disgusted and MOSTLY IMPORTANTLY, DISAPPOINTED!!

dream to hope

still when the sky becomes dark,
i will still pray and hope that rainbow will appear one day again,
outside my kitchen window (:

BABY ITOUCH

finally
my bday present is here!!

ITOUCH! ((:
so so so so happy!

to think we nearly could not make it in time to make the purchase before the cashier closes.
Realised the functions and applications are quite complicated that both of us got problems analyzing the problems at 4am in the morning. But after all, at least Bing's itouch got more applications and games and I got none. TRYing to understand how itunes work noww....... oh I need a manual, not a quick start. )):

Race to the Witch Mountain is a nice movie. Nice plot featuring the good side of Ailens and not just the slimy greeny kind of monsters.

Lastly to say, hungry makes one grumpy and tired. Yet the more I sleep the more grumpy and tired I get. Meanwhile now, trying to understand this new precious (:

when the moon is round and the skies are grey

Today was a long day out. Morning work and I was late. After work, meet up with Alexis and we shopped for MY dress (((:

Walked the whole of town, nothing really caught my eyes. But at least town wasn't as crowded as city hall. I bet city hall is packed with people carrying IT shopping bags. Well, tml will be my turn. FINALLY getting a hard disk for myself.

It has been quite a while that we had a long walk. From Far East to Cathay. Somehow it reminds me of us walking from wheelock to city hall? That was the times, that I know I will never forget. Anyw, so we settled at Cathay and talked about the random-est things. Ranging from life to religion to ghosts to whatever whatever. Haha.

Things changed with every minute ticked by.
Maybe at this very moment,
someone might got into an accident and die, or 2 cats got into a fight and one of them died, or at this very moment when I typed this, in somewhere of this world, there is a breakup or maybe there's newly weds just announced husband and wife.
To feel happy or sad for these events, one cant have both emotions at the same time. It's getting abit too complicated because it's unpredictable. Oh, I'm refering to life here. So unpredictable that I might die the next moment after I'm done with this sentence. Some might live in depression state of not knowing what to do when things happened. Worst still, continue to dwell on the issue and get deeper and deeper that ended up refusing help even when offered. Whereas some would not let themselves sink further and quickly TRY to solve the issue.

I'm still far from the 3rd category, which I'm working hard to achieve that. Life sucks and everyone knows, but instead of finding the reason and the meaning to prove that it's wrong, somehow ugly events would occur and make you believe even deeper that life really sucks.

People changed with every transition they met.
But people have the obvious change is when they have transformation in life.

I'm at the cross-road of a transition, but not yet a transformation. What about you?


I thought I'm still uncertain,
about the qns I doubt in me.
Now that thought of doubt has been cleared,
I think I'm one step closer to believing in you,
Believing that you are the one I need.

world of colors, I like

Tried to use wordpress, but it seems too complicated for me.
So I shall stick to blogspot, though it's boring boring boring boring

I realised I love colors.
At least colors make me smile, when no one can.
Goes the same for rainbow (: