I neeeeed more jobs!

an add on to the prev post, maybe theres more to just sexually driven intention.

Being anorexic has to have more reasons to why girls will do that. Stress is one of such. Usually the nature of this will come from family and social lives. Families whom asked for perfection in every aspect they do, which mould the next generation to become a perfectionist too. Its good and bad to be a perfectionist. But asking for a perfect life is hard cause in the real world, nothing is perfect and very often we have to accept for what it is.
Sometimes it hurts like mad when you are stabbed by many needles to the extent that the feeling of pain just went numb.
-bear with it, swallow it, and keep walking. Nv slow down to even take a peep at your shadow and keep moving.

Nowadays, work is getting more shitty. cause that DAMN SMART OM is getting on my nerves that I even prepared what im going to say to him IF he ever provoke me. HAHA, really really @#!@$%^&%* manager. Tml going to see him again. I hope I DONT NEED to see him AT ALL. TSKKK..... I NEED MORE JOBS! =( bnj not earningg. Think i just wanna work as much as possible.

Life has been relatively good. Singing at jam bar on Saturday was fun, totally destress and totally tire me out. I like this kind of companies, I like this kind of simple fun. I love them more than words can describe. And I believe we are going to be, as cheesy as it sounds, BFF. Hahaha..

Jiun's back! ((: *WAVES*

Going back to the routine of trainings and working and trainings and working. Working has become much more fun cause always talking bad about the new OM. He's an ass, super shit manager. Perhaps the worst OM I have ever see. A while ago, someone asked me this qns, ' If murder were to make legal, who will i kill ? ' Now I have the ans. He will be the first on my list. Seriously, with him ard, our lives can never be happy. With him ard, I cant focus on my work(though there's nth much to focus on. HAHA ) But its the people that I stayed on. At least the 'older' scoopies are coming back and i thank god for that! ((: HEH

Question to ponder: Do you believe that whatever thing we do are sexually-driven? Shit I think I might not phrase the question properly, in another words, human actions are accompanied with an intention of attracting or repelling the other party of the same or opposite sex. It's like why girls will go on SUPER diet? Is it for the beauty of your own so that this will appeal to the opposite sex? And why some girls are so particular to their outlook, that girls are constantly buying clothes. HARDLY you see this trend in guys right? Not that they don't care about their outlook, but i think as long as they are comfortable in their dressing and look decent, everything doesn't really matter. Well again, this is subjective cause some guys mind alot about their outlook.
Some of the words might sound unpleasant to the receiver yet not to the speaker. And why do people flirt and why girls whine? Well you can say its girls nature and i believe many girls out there will protest to this, saying that they dont whine. To how you determine whining it's also up to the other party to decide. And whining can be also seem to be a sexually-driven action. There's too many things on earth that human actions can be esaily misunderstood and bring the wrong msg to ppl. So either you know the person well and see that he/she is that kind of person, if not one might think that he/she is always giving out the wrong signals.

Enough of crap, life's short! Live to the fullest. (:

tired

sing songs camwhore madlyvideoing madlydancing.
it must have been quite a while since I have such fun. (:

beginning to believe

as cheesy as it might sounds,
' you are the one who can hold the sky for me when it falls.'

So cheesy, so gloss but when its proven that he did it. It's not that cheesy anymore.

You have been there at the lowest point of mine.
You have been the greatest support when nobody could.
You make an effort to make your presence known even though you are back in camp and im here alone.
You make me believe that when the sky does fall, I'm not the only one shouldering these alone; because I have you.

You might not be the most romantic guy, or at least abit more romantic than I thought
You might not be one who paint a studio of artpieces
You might not be someone who plays piano or at least know music instruments
You might not be a super animal lover ( please overcome dog fear if can. BIG dog, i mean )
You might not be someone who splurge and buy stuffs for

At least,
you are someone I know I can rely on,entrust my heart to, believe in, gain support from, especially now. A big thank you ((:


*ilu