its a great tuesday

it was 3 in the morning
and i was out there sitting on the high chair outside bnj @ dempsey.
im fighting with the fatigue in me not wanting to sleep as i think about stuffs i shouldnt be.

cause it was supposed to be a good tuesday.
And it still is, and now im going to meet the psb (fyi, it means pangsai birds) again ((:

have been working hard and playing hard, and spending hard as well.
and i only have life after work, which is night time alrdy.

suddenly into the 'prawning' mood. I went prawning twice in a week. Yes its madness and its draining my $$$$ away. But who cares, what matters most is fun. First time was at Pasir Ris, and that was after happy meal at IKEA. Dont know why Pasir Ris prawning place is so not happening. There are hardly any people ard. I think we are quite pathetic. 2 rods but we only got 4, but the most saddening thing is that 2 come from other ppl. =(( more of a picnic trip rather than prawning session. I likeee ((: Another time will be few days ago. This time around at my house area! FINALLY somewhere so convenient for me. This place is much more happening, see people prawn out big small prawns and we have only small ones. =(( think they have better baits than I do. =x This time round, not so bad. with 4 rods we caught 15 prawns. AT LEAST, i caught SOMETHING! hahah. All of us alrdy like dying and lacking of slp, but i dont know why ( I dont know alot of things on that night cause im tooo tired to think ) we ended up at amk Mac drive thru eating. Having to wait for 45mins for breakfast. And playing 7-up so that the loser can go ask and ask the counter crew or manager 'is breakfast ready yet?' I swear the people there wanna kill us.=/

anyw, results are out and im disapppointed. Given the effort that I put in for each paper, Im hoping more than just this. Yet given the state when im doing the paper, i know i cant hold much hope. having to work so much now, i cant wait to start sch. I cant wait to reserve some time for myself. Bet you must be thinking why i wont do it now, cause it seems like im obliged to give shifts. As long as there's nice ppl around, i actually dont mind working. but then sometime it does pay a price for that. what i can say is that responsbility becoming a burden.

I cant wait for Chunk Fest, the only event im anticipating PEACE JOY LOVE AND ICE CREAM.

meanwhile, im still counting down... 2weeks plus abit more (: to be back in your arms <3

meanwhile happy photos.

After our facial treatments, is there a diff? lol


fireworks are always so pretty. it lighten up the darkest moment of your life. it makes you smile no matter how damp your mood is. (:

miss you pangsai.

hate it when you judge

Who the hell give you the bloody right to judge me for one trait.
Who the hell do you think you are to say such crude shit.

For this, i condemned you and dont expect me to show you ANY respect from today onwards. You maybe a OM, but hell you are just a FUCKING asshole who thinks only with your butt.

its a long way to go still.

so many things that have happened this one week. ( I think im quite lagggg in this entry)
It has been quite eventful i must say. From jiun's departure to having QT spent with Dearest, to having to see him off with a heavy heart.

2 Aug 09 - It was only Monsters + gracie invite to Jiun's house for steamboat and dramatic thing happened. We are all late for dinner and because the kitchen abit too small for all of us to help out, so some of them just sit out and sit while some chop cut wash in the kitchen. Wells, smart serene offered to help in cutting mushroom and somebody said that the knife is blunt, so i attempted it with a small knife. Apparently, the knife is sharper than i thought and just the first cut, i cut myself -.- Blood flow like nobody business so i let it run under the tap, the sharp pain is alrdy unbearable actually. So i was told to hold it up high to stop the blood from falling and hold it tight. I started to feel dizzy after a while so i went to sit down. The stupid-est thing happened when the nxt moment i know was im alrdy on the floor. Yes, i fainted. I dont know what happened, but it feel like a sleep. hahah, I guess it scared some of them, or all of them? hahah, to me, i haven't faint for a long time so this isn't the first time that frighten ppl. HAHA.

3 Aug 09 - jiun's departure. This time round, there's no tears no sadness in everyone's eyes. It is so much better than last time, as this time round jiun knows be it in Singapore or Melb, she will be loved and care for by so many ppl. I know she will do fine, and i believe she will.

4 Aug 09 - Bing's Social night. Worked in the morning then after which chiong home to prepare for the night. The dinner is kinda boring except for the dancing part and the part which one of the guys know beeping ( is that how it is spelt? ) Omgg, that guy is JUST TALENTED! whoever the gf is, must be damn fortunate. Saw nicole and we talked quite a bit. Someone whom I dont even talk to in sec school. Basically, we did what girls do best. COMMENTING ABOUT PEOPLE. about their dressing figures and faces... hahah. Make new friends along the way, which is something good I guess.

5 Aug-7 aug - Sentosa Chalet with Bing. This is the second time that we spent time tog in Sentosa Chalet. Bing has been the greatest company, as always. Wanted to go to Sentosa early to tan but weather was bad and so we went to watch movie (fighting) then check in. The room is not as nice as i thought it will be, quite smalllllllll actually. oh wells, im more excited about bbq-ing at night. 2 persons bbq-ing! ((:
The man set up the fire while the lady prepared the food like all the wrapping and putting of sambal chilli in almost all the food! hahaha. I thought the food wouldn't be enough but it turns out to be more than enough as we didnt finish the food ultimately.

the moment we have to say goodbye,
the moment when the ship started to sail off,
the moment when the clock strike 6pm,
I still refused to look at you.
Though its only 6weeks,
it feels longer than that.

occupying myself with many workloads just make myself more tired,
hoping that it will feel better.
apparently its not doing very well
and i think i need to do sth about it.

meanwhile i think i need to sleep soon, tml another full day. I just cant wait for friday! Another outing with nice ppl ((:

time is ticking by.. slowly

i guess im the most workaholic person in the team, fancy handling 2 jobs. I must be mad, but in along the way I met interesting ppl, i learnt to be much more independent and of cause fun comes into the picture. If there's no fun, i won't even do it in the first place.

Anyw, friday was a day of 'coinicidence'. I met sheena's mum at bk, cause thanks to sheena, she told her that im working. well, at least that makes my lousy friday brighten up a little. Then night time going back to bnj and work was totally FUN! cause cause cause, we saw JJ Lin and took a photo with him despite he has left and came back aft that. ( PS: im not a fan of his) but, THANKS to Ivan one of the scoopy who told one of their men that we girls are DYING to take a photo with him.

BUT BUT BUT, there's this handsome one there and I requested to take photo with him only =SS HAHAH, quite funny cause i kept saying till my friend bth and helped me ask. =DDD hahaha but dont know why the photo turns out to be just 'orh ok lor'..

Oh wells, nvm i still find him quite handsome =) at least he's in the photoshoot with JJ Lin. Later in the night, sheena and erica came (: and i kopped abit of their drinks. Then then, I saw GAYNA! My bball senior whom used to be the prettiest in the team, and she still is now! Now being a SIA girl (: so goood, turn out she knows MEIQI! small world small world. that's not all, saw weizheng and his gf. Think they are celebrating his bday here. I TRIED to request for a bday song to be sang to him. AND BLOODY HELL, I sent it twice but the stupid band ignored it twice till Wei Zheng left alrdy they still ignored! TSKK, though im not even close to him at least I thought i could do something as a staff working there knowing that past midnight is his bday.

On a happier note, NDP IS GREAT! actually not bad laa. the various 'chapters' are interesting but only selected ones are nice to watch! Fireworks are always the prettiest and worthwaiting to watch. Hosts have been very entertaining, though its only a preview they have made the 3 hours of show eventful. I didnt expect myself and Bing to be quiteeee enthu about being a REAL Singaporeans and shout and wave the stupid heart-shaped hand-held light, and also to wave the little flag when the 'fake' president passed by. The retro part is the one which i think is the highlite of the show, with all the singings and dancing by various celebrities. The hot ones, the sexy ones, the funny ones, the 'cannot-sing' ones. hahah, Alot of photos taken and I realised all in Ray's camera and stupid boy dont wanna upload...

10 more days, before Bing sets off for 6 weeks. It's going to be the longest time that we have part since 2 years ago. Before that day arrives, we shall and will spend QT tog as much as we can alrights?

(:

many many many things happened recently.
good and bad ones.

let's forget about it and move on with life.
met up with Jiun for lunch for some spizza treats ((: most importantly its the company that makes the day.
met up with Selene, initially for tanning but just so UNLUCKY of all days, it rained on that day LATE MORNING. TSK, so change to salads buffet! as healthy as it may sounds, I ate till super full without feeling too guilty, except that I have ice cream aft that. Which totally defeat the purpose of eating healthy. Anyw, also not trying to diet just wanna cut down on unhealthy food. But dont know why am i still in the f&b line...

Anyw new job new workplace new kind of fun. Haven't get used to it yet.. Suddenly seeing people of all ages. You name it, you got it. Frankly speaking, handling 2 jobs is REALLY tiring. Cant imagine how i am going to tahan for nxt week schedule.
we shall see.

meanwhile, im sorry dearest if i haven't had time for you. nevertheless thanks for the understanding and the care and concerns. like a best friend, like a lover, you have been the greatest.. ever (:

I neeeeed more jobs!

an add on to the prev post, maybe theres more to just sexually driven intention.

Being anorexic has to have more reasons to why girls will do that. Stress is one of such. Usually the nature of this will come from family and social lives. Families whom asked for perfection in every aspect they do, which mould the next generation to become a perfectionist too. Its good and bad to be a perfectionist. But asking for a perfect life is hard cause in the real world, nothing is perfect and very often we have to accept for what it is.
Sometimes it hurts like mad when you are stabbed by many needles to the extent that the feeling of pain just went numb.
-bear with it, swallow it, and keep walking. Nv slow down to even take a peep at your shadow and keep moving.

Nowadays, work is getting more shitty. cause that DAMN SMART OM is getting on my nerves that I even prepared what im going to say to him IF he ever provoke me. HAHA, really really @#!@$%^&%* manager. Tml going to see him again. I hope I DONT NEED to see him AT ALL. TSKKK..... I NEED MORE JOBS! =( bnj not earningg. Think i just wanna work as much as possible.

Life has been relatively good. Singing at jam bar on Saturday was fun, totally destress and totally tire me out. I like this kind of companies, I like this kind of simple fun. I love them more than words can describe. And I believe we are going to be, as cheesy as it sounds, BFF. Hahaha..

Jiun's back! ((: *WAVES*

Going back to the routine of trainings and working and trainings and working. Working has become much more fun cause always talking bad about the new OM. He's an ass, super shit manager. Perhaps the worst OM I have ever see. A while ago, someone asked me this qns, ' If murder were to make legal, who will i kill ? ' Now I have the ans. He will be the first on my list. Seriously, with him ard, our lives can never be happy. With him ard, I cant focus on my work(though there's nth much to focus on. HAHA ) But its the people that I stayed on. At least the 'older' scoopies are coming back and i thank god for that! ((: HEH

Question to ponder: Do you believe that whatever thing we do are sexually-driven? Shit I think I might not phrase the question properly, in another words, human actions are accompanied with an intention of attracting or repelling the other party of the same or opposite sex. It's like why girls will go on SUPER diet? Is it for the beauty of your own so that this will appeal to the opposite sex? And why some girls are so particular to their outlook, that girls are constantly buying clothes. HARDLY you see this trend in guys right? Not that they don't care about their outlook, but i think as long as they are comfortable in their dressing and look decent, everything doesn't really matter. Well again, this is subjective cause some guys mind alot about their outlook.
Some of the words might sound unpleasant to the receiver yet not to the speaker. And why do people flirt and why girls whine? Well you can say its girls nature and i believe many girls out there will protest to this, saying that they dont whine. To how you determine whining it's also up to the other party to decide. And whining can be also seem to be a sexually-driven action. There's too many things on earth that human actions can be esaily misunderstood and bring the wrong msg to ppl. So either you know the person well and see that he/she is that kind of person, if not one might think that he/she is always giving out the wrong signals.

Enough of crap, life's short! Live to the fullest. (:

tired

sing songs camwhore madlyvideoing madlydancing.
it must have been quite a while since I have such fun. (:

beginning to believe

as cheesy as it might sounds,
' you are the one who can hold the sky for me when it falls.'

So cheesy, so gloss but when its proven that he did it. It's not that cheesy anymore.

You have been there at the lowest point of mine.
You have been the greatest support when nobody could.
You make an effort to make your presence known even though you are back in camp and im here alone.
You make me believe that when the sky does fall, I'm not the only one shouldering these alone; because I have you.

You might not be the most romantic guy, or at least abit more romantic than I thought
You might not be one who paint a studio of artpieces
You might not be someone who plays piano or at least know music instruments
You might not be a super animal lover ( please overcome dog fear if can. BIG dog, i mean )
You might not be someone who splurge and buy stuffs for

At least,
you are someone I know I can rely on,entrust my heart to, believe in, gain support from, especially now. A big thank you ((:


*ilu