it doesnt have to be a kiss or a hug to make me happy,
simply laughter and companionship of a 8-year-old kid.
Make me feel young once again. :D

FIRST DAY OF WORK

finally i start work!
Finally i have a proper job.
but how long this going to last im not sure.

BUT AT LEAST I HAVE A JOB!
I cant wait to save up,
FOR GRAD TRIP!!! :DDD

STRAWBERRRY FIELDSSSSSSSSS! ((((((((:

i need a life

We have a fragile heart. Deal with the problems that are closer to your heart, rather than problems that constantly surfacing yet are far away from your heart.

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im counting down 3 more days to freeedom, 4 days to genting, 10days to no-life days. SIGH..

i paused,
i closed my eyes,

i touch the left side of my chest, and i realised it's a constant heartbeat im listening to.

is it good or bad?

i realised, it has been like that. Has always been like that sinceeee...
we shall see huh.

waste no time; lets go.

its so weird its so irony its so confusing i just dont get it.

recently i just realised i make a rather interesting friend. She makes me realised what life is about, and tells me what life could bring. She makes me think beyond what i have now and plan wayyyyyyyy ahead because shes a very driven person. Making me realised what i want ultimately and doing the right thing that help me in my future and not just because of today's benefits and neglect what future can bring. Taught me stuffs I have not realised unconsciously, and her thoughts and words are so motivated that I know i should waste no time on things that only makes me richer today. Right now I need to get back my form to study and of course not forgetting yoga though cutting down on that. I just cant wait for this coming holidays. I have one hundred and one million things need to be done.

Even the strongest will have their weaker side. ////
If u are confused, u can do so in your own world. Dont let the other party suffer the same situation with you because that only makes you very selfish. Letting us making unnecessary assumptions and ultimately what we exchange for is only tears. I guess we arent that young anymore and i think we are matured enough to decide whats best for ourselves. Unless we are certain we are able to step out of this comfort zone and DARE to turn back and tell ourselves that this is the choice i've made and I will not regret it, this is only going to be a merry-go-round.
Whatever the result is, no matter how much I disapprove that stupid pangsai bird, ultimate decision still lies with you. all I can do is to support u when u fall.
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you guys make it all worthwhile (:

it was definitely a fun day out. Right from the start till the end when i closed my eyes to sleep, the fun is never ending.

from having to alight in town and burn a hole in my pocket because im in the wrong attire for the place im going. but yea ending surprise is one of my fav! KITE FLYING. because noob person here havent fly for a million years! FINALLY, tog with <3.

Got myself uneven tanned lines, and went to BSB concert with another grp of loves :D we screamed, we shouted, we melted (SEVERAL TIMES WHEN NICK CARTER'S VIEDO WAS UP), we cursed and swear because the grp of girls in front are super irritating. They should have just save up and buy the 148bucks tix! TSK. It was merely 1hr 30min before the whole thing ends and I thought thats the end.

im not a hardcore BSB fan but having to see him is TOTALLY worth it! HAHA

Monsters was my last surprise and indeed they are the BEST surprise ever, fancy appearing out of nowhere when i least expected them to be. Together with the 2 boys :D and stuffed me with ice cream cake and more pints of ice cream! BEST. Camwhore of course, esp the 10 continuous shots. Totally hilarious. Thanks to those who make this day possible. Rmb it in my heart <3

despite the little unhappiness, I'm glad we still hold onto each other.
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Just went for my first yoga lesson. Today is the first day after the yoga and Im aching like mad, thinking back of how I have my first training when I was still in NACC. those muscles aches are comparable to what im having now. straining and nuaaaa-ing. This fri and sat going for another few sessions, because HAVE TO MAKE MY $$$ WORTH!

Luckily I have crazy friend to acc each other. never fail to bully me. tmd...

damn

so rigid so inflexible
if you think you can do better,
please go ahead.

don't ask people to complete task for you and then criticise on it.
if you think we are 3years old kids to you,
then please fuck off.

so you think you can display your displeasure and we cant?
SUREEEEEEEEEEEE.
By all means, if that makes you happy.

Just dont expect any respect or trust from me to you,
cause you don't deserve even a 0.1% of it AT ALL.

dying from packing, dont remind of unpacking

its 2:18am
and im still packing.

I have cleared my wardrobe beforehand. LUCKILY!
cause I have been packing my desk area and whatever remaining stuffs since 9pm. Im damn tired. I think i will DEFINITELY DREAD unpacking. I wonder how many days I will take.

Given the number of boxes I have, I think at least 5days. )):

goodbye angmokio )):

Though I always complained the room is so small,
that my desk is always so messy because of the lack of space
Though I always whine about how i wish I have my own room so that I can decorate it.
Though I always complained the estate has SOOOO many uncountable nightmares = cockroaches, at least this reminds me that I have been here for the past 21 years of my life.

23rd Jan, im going to move to some ulu place. some corner in the the world. )): so sian. No shopping centre nearby, no late night movies where i can just walk home. most importantly, no more open space where I can star gaze for the whole night with youu. So sadddd please.

But on the brighter note that i can comfort myself is that IM CLOSER TO MY SECONDARY FRIENDS! Selene at Woodlands, Jy at Sembawang and Bing and Ahmad at Yishun! (: We are able to meet up more often now without having to worry we need to spend on expensive transport homeeeeeeeee.. ((:
this week going to be busy moving house.. 23rd is going to be the busiest, first time moving house. I think I have unfinished stuffs to bring over. hahaha, and im still not done with my room. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

hongkong for the second time.

First time travelling with you.

This is the prettiest place in Hong kong i think, and the COLDEST place ever to go in January. Scenery is wonderful, but the weather was too cold to continue staying on at the Peak to enjoy the serenity of the whole view. All I want was a cup of hot chocolate. And we ate some cakes which we got it for freeeeeeeeeeeee. :/




Ate at midnight cause I have a craving for toast! PS: this is caramel toast. MELTSSSSSSSSSSS in my mouth. and get fat after that.

PIG LEGS, and its damn yummy.

LOVE THIS. Eat twiceee in 5 days :DD

Making your own burger. But we didnt in the end, cause just spent a bomb at H&M . so just choose their signature burgers.

We had the pigeon meat. The smaller bird shown in the pict. No $$ for the bigger birds that's why.

They have a interesting name for club. HEI HEI = HAHA in chinese. And bloody hell we thought the night starts at 1130pm once the club opened, but not! Eveyone only started dancing at 1am!! Imagine how long we rot in the club watching people flirting. Oh wells, but at least they closed club at 6am, just nice ready for a brand new day and the clubbers can slp throughout the day.



17 days of 2010 have passed. And I think this rusty blog needs some pampering. So here I am showering it with words and photos. But come to think of it now, I think photos are better and easier to upload than typing. Life has been quite good, so good that I have been skipping classes just to have fun. Have fun in terms of going overseas ( yea twice in hong kong in less than 2 weeks totally no $$ nowww ): ) Oh wells, pay for the kind of company each time :DD Both ocassions I just eat and shop and eat and shop and sight seeing. Hong kong is really a nice place. But since I have gone twice, the nxt place i wanna explore is either Japan or Korea. SIGHHH, no $$. Hopefully to go for one after exams. save save saveeeeee!!

Overseas trips usually show how the person will be like. And so this is how you are.
You companied me walked the whole of Argyle centre for the whole afternoon though there's nth for you to shop, without complaining. Not one day but two.
You helped with all my shopping bags.
How you accomodate to my ridiculous demand at the club when you don't like it.
You let me eat shop eat shop for all I can though u still say I am fat.
You gave me your jacket to wear even though I know you are wet and cold.
You blow hot air into my face and palms when I was literally frozen and having headache as a result. ( damn lousy i knowww )
I have my fill of sleep while you are on the lookout for sight of our hotel when we sat on the wrong bus making a BIG detour at 1am ++
How patience you are to endure my moodswing during that rainy day, when everything went so so wrong. That day must be hard on you. I'm truly sorry about it.


Bing, you have been one of the best travelling partners ever. You take care of my needs while I can be your map. (: We make good partners right? Hahaha. Though this is not the first time we are travelling tog, this is the FIRST time we are travelling alone tog. I wanna go on another trip with you again and again.. and again. All i wanna is to create more wonderful memories with you.


though sometimes u can be quite an ass for bullying me, thanks for believing and have faith in me. thank you for all you have done.ilu*

I cant wait!

Tonight is the day.
After tonight is another day.
For you and for me (:

Finally congrats to Dearest Bing. YOU HAVE COMMISSIONED! Dont know whether its a good thing or a bad thing cause there's more responsibilities coming up for you. Jia you!

Whereas for me, Im flying off to find the rest of the pangsai birds in few hours time! ((: So exciting to take plane alone ( at least this is my VERY FIRST time taking alone ). I have yet to borrow/buy a book to go on plane to read. SIAN. And I have yet to settle so many xmas presents. And worst still, I have yet to change my $$ to hk dollars. Im so dead pleasee.

Monsters exchange was equally exciting as any other year. With them ard, how can the atmosphere be not fun and noisy and filled with joys and laughters, though it was like back to my second home at BNJ DEMPSEY. :/

Im finally done with another handicrafts of all of us and the helper is totally not being very useful. TSK, nvm I cant wait for 26th to see their smelly faces again.

MEANWHILE, I CANT WAIT FOR 6AM OF SUNDAY TO COME! (((((((((:

the world is going too fast
i need to slow down,
i need to calm down
this i have been telling myself for the hundredth or perhaps a thousandth times from the 25mins walk home.

i hope 2009 ends at this minute
i hope 2010 starts at the nxt minute.

too many unfortunate things happened at the same time
too much pressure suddenly on my shoulder

It was only one night and the number of series of unfortunate events piled like crazy.
I could take it no more.. then i realised I only have myself to cry myself to slp.

its the worst day ever.

what a day
what a screwed up day
with a screwed up trip
and best thing is, my phone's spoilt.

damn sad, feel like just doing everything on impulse. and so its true that one can never have the best of both worlds.

damnnnnnnnnnn!

plain strawberries will do (:

it was such a last min decision to go club.
with a BIGG shopping bag (quilt to be exact) in my hand,
and causal attire and there we went into the club cause its LADIES NIGHT!

Though its merely 2 hours in Butter Factory, the companies are *thumbs up*,
well except abit too crowded, abit too hot, abit too many weird ppl ard. Hmmm, maybe the nxt time i wanna go will be this. (sounds so noob but yea, has beeen 21435 years since i clubbed ok)

I realised its a knid of qns that is thrown back to me every now and then, and somewhat it gets me all confused. That is when I'm information overload and i cant process everything so fast and neatly in my mind and that's what I started to have a feeling of doubt. But when im again all alone, I can think clearer, and everything falls back into its original place and thats when i realised there's actually nth much for me to worry about.

somebody asked me: at this point of time in your life ( I mean NOWWW), will you choose chocolate-coated strawberries r/s where you know there will always be a tinge of sweetness and abit of sourness when you bite into it, devouring the dessert while enjoying the change of taste in your mouth. Or, will you choose raisin bread which you know its not as delicious as strawberries, but once in a while when you bite into the raisins, the juiciness of the raisins filled your mouth, giving you the equal satisfaction strawberries give. SO, whats ur choice?

upon seeing this, I can NEVER success in dieting pleaseeee! ):



after looking at one after another strawberries photos, i came to realise they are so beautiful.
baby, i don't need a strawberrries field, nor all these sweet little treats.

maybe maybe maybe, all i wanna is thisss......
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ONE DAMN BIG STRAWBERRY TO LAST THROUGH MY LIFETIME :DDDDD

pictures say it all

our regular customer. to the extent that she knows most of the scoopies!

byebye to ivan. but still will seee your pangsai face eveyr now and then.

My pangsai birds. #1 and #2. totally irritating but still love you (:


The Beautilful View of Somerset At a Higher Height (: Accompany by great company. Where I almost get myself trapped in the shopping mall. =/




My lovely present for you. sometimes its good to have a little pampering to yourself though it burns a BIGGGGGGGGGGGG hole in your pocket.




Fiona's 21st!

when the bday girl isnt at home and we have to entertain ourselves somehow, then after which sweat ourselves out hiding behind the mj table. Fiona, u need to have more fans in your house! =/

The happpiest girl on 2oct (:

So should it be 'happy birthday Jappo' ? Hahaa, at least this is the kind of fun i miss after so many so manyyy.


Sorry fiona, I cant resist but ask to take a photo with your mum, cause she's simply TOO HOT. =/




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times when life is at its peak, when only laughters can be heard and nonsense is made in the room, I can feel that this is the moment I wanna live for. But there's times when life is at its lowest, when tears are shed and literally cried the hearts out and having terrible heartaches, i know this is inevitable. we need to have ups and downs to compensate for the balance emotions in us. Who would want to have sadness in their life, but when mistakes are made and lessons are learnt(hopefully), I'm hoping for a miracle actually. Its hard to not worry about what's going to happen, because of the fear of making the same mistake again. yet the more we worry about what's going to happen, the more we will assume what's going to be result. Yet on the other side, you will still give yourself hopes because of 'always look at the brighter side of your life' . Then eventually when you are used to 'holding on to that hope' , and the result diff, this is the time when the reality slaps you in the face and ask u to wake up.
Then again, its hard not to think about it. Though pretendious can be very real, the real emotion inside is making you spin. Maybe this is it. Maybe its late and i need to stop blogging. Maybe I need to go slp to think about other stuffs.

cheap thrills :D

this is the kind of adventure i wanna be part of,
this is the kind of cheap thrills I wanna experience,
this is more than just a roller coaster ride.
Which kept my heartbeat pounds faster every min.

But im glad,
that im hop into this adventure with you!

to being almost trapped in shopping mall!

its a great tuesday

it was 3 in the morning
and i was out there sitting on the high chair outside bnj @ dempsey.
im fighting with the fatigue in me not wanting to sleep as i think about stuffs i shouldnt be.

cause it was supposed to be a good tuesday.
And it still is, and now im going to meet the psb (fyi, it means pangsai birds) again ((:

have been working hard and playing hard, and spending hard as well.
and i only have life after work, which is night time alrdy.

suddenly into the 'prawning' mood. I went prawning twice in a week. Yes its madness and its draining my $$$$ away. But who cares, what matters most is fun. First time was at Pasir Ris, and that was after happy meal at IKEA. Dont know why Pasir Ris prawning place is so not happening. There are hardly any people ard. I think we are quite pathetic. 2 rods but we only got 4, but the most saddening thing is that 2 come from other ppl. =(( more of a picnic trip rather than prawning session. I likeee ((: Another time will be few days ago. This time around at my house area! FINALLY somewhere so convenient for me. This place is much more happening, see people prawn out big small prawns and we have only small ones. =(( think they have better baits than I do. =x This time round, not so bad. with 4 rods we caught 15 prawns. AT LEAST, i caught SOMETHING! hahah. All of us alrdy like dying and lacking of slp, but i dont know why ( I dont know alot of things on that night cause im tooo tired to think ) we ended up at amk Mac drive thru eating. Having to wait for 45mins for breakfast. And playing 7-up so that the loser can go ask and ask the counter crew or manager 'is breakfast ready yet?' I swear the people there wanna kill us.=/

anyw, results are out and im disapppointed. Given the effort that I put in for each paper, Im hoping more than just this. Yet given the state when im doing the paper, i know i cant hold much hope. having to work so much now, i cant wait to start sch. I cant wait to reserve some time for myself. Bet you must be thinking why i wont do it now, cause it seems like im obliged to give shifts. As long as there's nice ppl around, i actually dont mind working. but then sometime it does pay a price for that. what i can say is that responsbility becoming a burden.

I cant wait for Chunk Fest, the only event im anticipating PEACE JOY LOVE AND ICE CREAM.

meanwhile, im still counting down... 2weeks plus abit more (: to be back in your arms <3

meanwhile happy photos.

After our facial treatments, is there a diff? lol


fireworks are always so pretty. it lighten up the darkest moment of your life. it makes you smile no matter how damp your mood is. (:

miss you pangsai.